Janice Alper

 

A widow knows
his hand will not reach
out to you in the dark
to brush away your tears
or put his arm around you
after a fight
about nothing at all.

A widow knows
couple friends
reach out
for a short time.

She adjusts
carries her own luggage
resists calling him
in the middle of the day to say,
“I love you. I miss you.”

A widow requests
a separate check in a restaurant
a single seat at the theater.
She dances at parties
pretending he is there.

At night a widow
spoons with the pillows
snuggles under the covers
breathes in his scent.


Janice Alper, an active octogenarian, writes poems, personal essays and memoirs. Follow her at www.janicesjottings1.com